Releasing

Some question God with "Why am I going through this?", "God, why are you taking me through this", and "I am ready to give up..". Instead no one will say "Jesus, I will release this situation, relationship, and battle into your hands ."

When you were little, did you ever have a toy that you always promised to keep forever and to never throw it away? Yes, we all made promises that we thought we would keep. Eventually, one day came where you played with that toy for the last time unknowingly. The toy got picked up, carried, and thrown away for the last time. No one told you that you would outgrow the very thing that you adored for many years. No one told you that it would soon become a memory. & no one told you the hurt you would feel by releasing it. You had a choice in whether the toy would have purpose in your life.

The entire month of February,God was constantly telling me to break free from things, people, and certain situations, day in and day out. I formed excuses why I need certain things and people in my life. It came to the point of me slowly losing myself, unknowingly. You know that saying "Once was blind, but now I can see"? Yeah, I was blind to the fact that I had people, things, and situations robbing me of the nutrients that I needed to grow. As I began to lose myself, I formed excuses that it was school being the reason I was spiritually and physically tired. I would constantly be reminded before I went to sleep that I need to "release" the very thing that I adored. It was nights that I went without sleep because I was ignoring the signals of the things and people that I needed to put expiration date on. You would think after many nights of convictions that I would get tired. Yeah, NO! I was willing to alter my life, for the very things that I was being warned of not being beneficial. You see I had this entire agenda of how I was going to alter my life. I thought I had it all right, all nicely laid out so that God could see that the very people I adored could fit into his plan for me. Not so! The last week of February, I received my final conviction that would change and shape my life. You see, when you have things hindering you from fulfilling the purpose that God has placed upon your life, He will alter your life to get back on track. I didn't understand it and why the changes began to happen fast. Until God showed and reminded me that " The road that He has set for me, some people cannot ride with you on.. & sometimes the road you want to constantly fix cannot be fixed because it is not in His agenda."

The first day of March, with tears in my eyes - I made a sound decision and I stopped holding and released it. Was I sad? Yes! Did I understand why? Yes! Did I regret it? Absolutely not! You see I had to realize that I could no longer hold onto things that was never meant for me to carry.

Hebrews 12:1 : " Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race the is set before us."

Prior before the decision, I had to realize that I had many warning before I continued in my disobedience. But I had to go through the process to understand that if I could release the things I held into my hands, then God could release the very things he had stored into His hands for me. A lot of times, we surround ourselves with people who God has already warned us about. That is why we have to be careful of who we allow to stay in our life. Not everyone that we think is "forever" is forever. 'Cause our "forever" is sometimes God "temporary".

With the decision I made, I am more happy than ever. I found myself again in Christ. Now, I don't care if I have to lose friendships or relationships. I don't care if I get talked about for still not doing worldly things that others condone in. I do not care if I have to be set apart. For Jesus, it will be worth it. I got a heavenly home to get to one day.

Ecclesiastes 3:1& 6 : "To everything there is a season and a time for every purpose under the heaven. (6): " A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away.."

Releasing is more than acknowledging what you've set free. It's rejoicing that you are not hindered by the things that distracted you from Jesus.