Releasing(Part Two) - Trusting the Process

After I decided to make the sound decision of releasing the very things that were never meant for me to carry, I began to question God after it. I remember one night before I went to bed I whispered “I understand I had to release, but God what exactly are you trying to prepare me for?”. As you know, God doesn’t always give you an answer instantly.

God answered my silent question on March 16, 2019. I woke up and my good friend texted me saying “Bre, let’s go on the Falcon Trail at 2 P.M. with some other friends”. Two o’clock came around and we headed to start the trail. As we were going up the long tiresome trail, I began to get frustrated. My friend Edwin, had the GPS to take us to the park that was near the end of the trail. As we were following Edwin’s lead, we started off all optimistic that we were going to see the park and that the long walks will be worth it. But what we did not know, is that we would get lost three times. Each of the three times we got lost, I began to complain. Saying “How don’t you know where to go?”, “We are lost”, “We are never going to get there!”, and “Ugh, I’m already tired of hopping over mud and stepping over fallen tree limbs”. All of those four statements would later provide me conviction near the end of the trail.

As we headed back, we were all tired and desperately wanting a nap. So with me being stubborn, I walked faster than my friends and eventually lead myself back to campus. My friend Edwin said “Bre, where are you going? It’s this way”. He gave me the start of the trial to head back to my dormitory. As stated above, I was walking FAST. I needed a nap because my feet were hurting. As I walked down a dirty path, Jesus spoke to me LOUD AS DAY! He said “ Edwin represented me. I gave you the start of the direction you needed to take to find you way home, but you have to be strong enough to lead through temptations” I literally stopped in my tracks and shrugged my shoulders and said “WHAT?!” I couldn’t understand what He meant by that statement. As I continued walking, I saw about five to six big tree limbs in the walk-way of the trial. I began to form strategies of how I was going to overcome and cross the very things that is meant for me to step over. As I jumped over the piles of tree limbs - He spoke again before I even crossed over it, saying “I walked beside you in your journey when you face trials and tribulations and when you were lost in sin. I reminded you of the things you had to jump over and release. I was there with you through the humps, bumps and steep hills that you don’t want to come down from years ago. But will you let me guide you even if you cannot understand why you have to cross steep mountains, mud, and the limbs that is blocking your from fulfilling what I have placed down on the inside of you”. I remembered I was literally ten feet away from crossing the bridge that would direct me to the main campus. There I stood, ten feet away – tears rolling down my face. Looking behind me to see if I could see my friends or to see if anybody saw me crying. As I got on the bridge, I began to whisper to God saying “ I’m going to allow you to lead me to the places where I don’t understand why I have to go through many more obstacles. But I know that you are trying to lead me to places where my faith will be tested and my trust will be steadfast upon you. So if I have to get uncomfortable in the things you are shaping me up for, then I will do.. I will trust you in my trials and tribulations, when my faith starts to get weary, and in the season you have laid upon me.

Now, some may read my conviction above and wonder “Bre, how does this relate to trusting God process that He is trying to take me through in my season?”, or “Everything is going wrong in my life, how am I suppose to trust a process I don’t understand?”. You see, some things God has performed in your life is never meant for you to understand so quickly. I didn’t truly understand why I had to release the things I released, nor did I understand why God was revealing himself to me so quickly after making my sound decision. Sometimes the process that God is trying to take us through is the very thing we do not want to go through. We don’t want to go through the struggles of life. But if we can just Trust God’s direction in this season, He’s about to do some transformation that we have never seen.

I may not understand now what God is trying to pull out of me in my season, but I have to have an unshakable faith to know that He’s is going to perform what I’ve been assigned. I may have to travel through so more hills and valleys, cry some more tears, question God decision, but I am ready for every obstacle because I know that God is with me. If I can just have the faith of a mustard seed, I know that the direction that He is trying to lead me, is the place I need to be at.

Proverbs 56: 11: “ In God have I put my trust, I will not be afraid what man can do unto me."

I take happiness back, I take my joy back, I take myself back, I take my love back, and most importantly I take the word that was planted in me at a young age, back. &’ I give God full authority over my life because His understanding and ways are so much BIGGER than the road I’m trying to travel.

I may be troubled on every side, but not defeated. I may not know where to turn, but I won’t give up. I may be persecuted, but the Bible says that God will not forsake us. I may feel/get hurt again, but not destroyed. Trusting the process may cost me friends, family, more tears, confusion – but I know that God had/has a plan for my life. Trusting the process may cost me going through some more stuff, but I know that God is strengthening me through my storm. TRUST THE PROCESS!

Proverbs 3: 5-6 : "Trust in the Lord, with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy path."